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[18 Nov 2005|07:20pm] |
yesterday (11/17) i ate ok, but more than i'd like to. salad. cottage cheese. popcorn.
today was bad. i had doritos and chocolate.
i plan to make up for this by fasting during the day tomorrow and only having soup/salad at dinner. its my birthday tuesday and my friends are taking me out to eat tomorrow night and i cant get out of it.
sunday i'm going to try and fast - maybe i'll go buy some juice and do a juice fast until tuesday night when its my actual birthday and another friend of mine has already ordered me a cake (even though i said i didnt want one) and plans to order pizza. gah. then the next day i;m driving home for thanksgiving break where there will be more eating. shiiiiiit. that's ok, i'll only eat when i'm around people and i have no choice not to.
when i get back from thanksgiving break i'm going to do more fasting. i've never really fasted before so maybe i can start out with a juice fast - OR fasting every other day of the week might be better.
ok. working out + fasting/semi-fasting. hopefully i'll fucking start to look less disgusting.
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[16 Nov 2005|08:41pm] |
i forced myself to workout this morning and i actually went two days in a row! yay!
i ate ok, i guess. tuna, yogurt, salad, toast, chicken, boiled veggies.
hope i dont binge tomorrow.
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[15 Nov 2005|04:38pm] |
i went to the gym for the first time in a very long time. i woke up at 8 this morning, feeling energetic and did the elliptical for about 20 mins, biked for about 20 mins. i'm going to try to sleep early tonight so that i can get up and MAKE myself go to the gym in the morning tomorrow too.
breakfast: cottage cheese, wheat toast, 2 turkey slices
afternoon: english muffin
dinner: english muffin, salad, cottage cheese
i'm going to let myself have some popcorn tonight and then that's it.
today's cals probably came to about 1000 but at least i worked out and no binges.
*edit* i spoke too soon. i went to my friend's house and she basically offered/tempted me to eat 20349029348 chocolates and now i want to die. i suck at life i will never be thin and i will never be happy with myself. I NEED TO STAY STRONG. must do better tomorrow. and the next day. no more fucking up.
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[14 Nov 2005|05:56pm] |
almost back on track today.
i probably ate around 900-1000 cals, which still wasnt my goal but at least i didnt binge all over the place.
i had soymilk + 1 apple this morning
lunch: veggies, half an english muffin (was going to have the entire thing but i dropped half of it on the floor, haha blessing in disguise), some chicken
dinner: fat free cottage cheese, salad, low cal hot chocolate
still not satisfied with today's progress, but its better than the way i've eaten for the past few months.
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